Nervous excitement

For a while now i have been desperately wanting to move out, of a number of reasons, family, black sheep syndrome and so on, but the main reason is that i really just want my Independence, a chance to spread my wings and start my own adventure. As things now days seem to be a tad expensive i need to start my adventure with someone. Mr O is wanting to start looking for a new job next year and pay off his car and all sorts of other things and he says that we can start looking for a place for the two of us next year sometime.

Weeball and I were discussing the exciting idea of moving out on our own in this big bad world and it got us thinking, maybe we should move in together. Now to me this sounded like i brilliant plan. Then she suggested that her boyfriend should move in with us as well as he is also desperate to move into his own place, living out of a bag can't be fun. Now even though the idea of our whole adventure coming with a cheaper price tag as everything would be split three ways instead of two, i must tell you honestly i wasn't really keen on the idea, just the though of the two of them playing house and me well just being this extra body that lived there didn't really appeal to me, if i wanted that I'd just stay home with my mother and step father. Well after a nice email from weeball explaining that we would all just have to make a concerted effort for it not to feel like that i felt a bit better. But i still felt a little weird.

So i did the usual, went to Mr O cried and claimed insanity, after a rather nice discussion and a back rub (which always helps) i realised that the only reasons I was thinking about all the negatives was because I scared, but then in all truthfulness when something is comfortable (in a sense) any change from that can be scary, and it doesn't help that i over analyse everything

Well now that I'm over my crazy paranoia (for now) I'm looking forward to moving in with my friend, if she'll still have me :)